Been a long time.

I havent written on here in 8 months or so. There have been a lot of up and downs since then. I dont really know where to start.

My girls are doing so well Kassidi will be 6 in September and Karlee just turned 2 on June 27. Karlee birthday party is coming up this weekend. I cant believe 2 years have flown by on my already and that Kassidi is almost 6 years old and Kassidi starts KINDERGARTEN in August. My lil girl isnt so little any more. I'm gonna bawl like a baby the first day I drop her off at school!

In May I started looking for a new full time job now that my VA GI BILL is over with. I still have one more class to take to get my Business Associate I plan on taking it in January and Graduating next May I hope! But I was so blessed! I got a a job before I resigned from my WACOG head start! I got hired on at Froniter Communications as a Work At Home Call Representative. It has good pay and great benefits! I am still in training til end of August! But I took my first calls over a week ago and I loved it! It was really confusing at first but after awhile I got adjusted and as I remembered stuff It got easier and easier! Its so awesome to talk to people all over the US! Off the phones until July 20th and I was so dissapointed about it except now I am learning everything else so the next time I am on the phones I'll know everything I will need to know to do my job effiecntly. As soon as my training is over I will work from my house! So COOL! Girls will still go to day care and I will come and work! I get internet for a good price through the company which is why I am finally able to post on here!

My grandma passed in April after a long fight. I'm so glad shes not in pain anymore and now she is in heaven rocking with my aunt. I had such a hard time after my aunt Paula passed away the weight on my heart has slowly got better but the closer it gets to August I feel it pressing again. I know Paula and my grandma are better where they are now and they are not in pain anymore and for that I am glad. I just miss my best friend.

My parents had taken a trip overseas to see my step sister and her son. That didnt turn out well. And I just wonder what makes my step sister so evil to hate my parents so much and for her to not trust them. They never did anything to her. They were great parents. There are 3 more of us who can very this my 2 brothers and myself. We have all turned out fine and love our parents very much. But hopefully step sister will some day realize what she has missed and that our parents have always been there for her. It just sucks is because my nephew is in the middle of it and probably will never get to see his grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins again.

To me tho. My life is great. I am loved by my family. I love my family. I have 2 great lil girls. I have a job I am enjoying. I have a place to live and to care for my girls. There are hardships but I will muck my way through them because that is who I am!

I feel so alone.

Life has been one big change after another. And the one person i want to talk to i cant. I miss my Aunt Paula so much. She was my total confident with my life as I was hers. We were more than just Aunt and neice we were best friends. I know shes gone but at times I really wish she was still here which is selfish of me because shes in a better place and in no more pain but with all 25 years of my life she has been there for me and now I dont know what to do without her. And I feel so ALONE.

Alot has changed.

Its been a hard month. I had to move in with my aunt Teri and cousin Emily because with the new GI Bill I'm still waiting for my money. I almost lost my car but thanks to my mom I didnt. But now I owe money to family and friends. Hopefully soon I get my VA payment.
Its a big adjustment to living with a 17 year old. But we slowly fudging through it. We get in arguments but then we make up quickly. Two total different personalities who clash alot! I'll either be here til I get my taxes or for good. It all depends on how it all works out. Most of my stuff is in storage, so its wierd. But I got my own room and the girls share a room.
Classes are going well I been going to business classes Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday nites. So the girls getting used to being bounced around again. Work is going okay. Wish i was full time but I cant become full time til i get 2 more Early Childhood Education classes done. And I cant sign up for those until i get my VA money.
Life sucks when i dont got my normal ammount of money coming in.
Kassidi's birthday is coming up this saturday and i cant do anything for her birthday yet and I feel super bad. I did help my Aunt Sherie throw a surprise party for my parents and she included Kassidi into the party but Kassidi didnt feel like it was a party for her and she told my aunt that. So whenever i get my payment I'm gonna haveto throw her somethign. Oh well thats it for now. TTUL

Sadness

I havent been on in awhile. Lots has happened and I just wanna cry.
My Aunt Paula got really sick beginning of August and she passed on August 18,2009. None of us were expecting her to get so sick and we thought she was getting better and within 12 hours we let her go. It hurts so bad. I expect to get a text or a phone call from her but it will never happen in my life again. It hurts so bad. I will always miss her.

I cant even finish writing right now about anything.

Its almost been a month!

Life has been busy! My Head Start job ended May 21st and I started working at my girls day care that same day! i was lucky to get a job! I had to find one for the summer or risk losing my child care assistance. But now I cant wait for August to come and start back up at Head Start. I like the day care but i do not like working in one! But a job is a job and i so cant afford paying child care normal price! College classes ended May 14 and I got 2 As and 1 B! YAY for me! Summer classes started June 1st and so far not easy! So much work to do in 8 weeks and right now I still dont have my books because of a miscommunication between the college and the VA. But soon i should be able to get them I HOPE!

So a long story short. I havent talked to my dad in 18 months so i havent talked to my lil bro in the same ammount of time. Well I talked to my grandma and my lil bro is in town for the summer. He will be 15 june 24 and he is working at my great aunt and uncles farm so Ifinally get to see him so I'm super happy!

A recipe I want to share!

My family calls it chicken stuff.

Ingredients:
1 package cream cheese
1 can Campbells Cream of Mushroom (or you can use chicken, brocoli and cheese, or any cream of soup)
4-6 pieces of boneless chicken breasts
1 Package Bacon

Turn Oven on 350.
In one pan fry up the bacon so it is a lil crunchy but not super hard crunchy.
Another pan melt the cream cheese and soup, add half a can of water.

In a cake pan place bacon on bottom of pan, then add chicken. then add the soup/cream cheese mix, Cover with tin foil and cook for 60 minutes.

While the chicken cools off make 2-3 servings of rice.

On plate put rice, chicken, bacon, and sauce on top.

IT IS SO GOOD!

I did it!

I got 2 As and 1 B in my classes this semester! I'm so happy! I feel so proud of myself!

I also met the President of the College on Wednesday and hes going to talk to the guy who was rude to me and my girls. He set me up an appointment to register for summer classes on Monday! I should be taking marketing and retailing this summer.