My job

So I love my job I love helping my customers. Only problem is I cant sell worth a damn. And have been talked about it by my supervisor more than once. December I have to sale like crazy and hit goal or else I might lose my job.

So I decided to look at job openings around town. There is nothing that I am qualified for! NOTHING! I am beginning to think the business degree was a wash. So I started looking into careers and how much they are paid. I thought about what I think I can do and what I would enjoy to do. I think I might start school again for Behavior Health/Chemical Dependency. Still thinking about it.

But for now I am going to work my hardest to SALE SALE SALE!

The Quit Did Not Happen

I didnt make it today. I made it 2 1/2 hours today but after dropping my girls off at day care I panicked and asked myself what am I going to do if I dont have smokes handy. So I bought a pack. When I got home I been smokin all day.

I went to the quitnet.com website tonite and got on a chat and the people I met on their inspired me to Quit tomorrow. This time I think i am ready. I am going to carry the gum with me to drop the girls off.

Tonite I dumped out the ashtray. I put my lighters away. I placed my gum on my work desk.

I am going to Quit. It is the right thing to do.

Quitting Smoking

I decided awhile back that it was time for me to quit smoking and that is why I have come back to my blog to write. I need a place to vent all my anxiety about quitting. Right now I get mad or upset i smoke. I get done eating I smoke. I smoke in my office while I work. After this last ear infection and upper respiratory infection my 2 year old got I really made the decision to quit. I could be the reason she gets sick. i feel like I am the reason because of my smoking. I signed up through work for a quit program that sent me nicotine gum and has a website called quitnet.com There is support there with people who just quit who have been quit for a short time and very long times.

This is officially the first time I have decided to quit just to quit. I quit when I went to boot camp I quit during both my pregnancies I can QUIT NOW!

I'm very anxious about it. And scared how I am going to be without smoking. I dont know what I am going to do with my hands or what I am going to do when i get the urge to smoke. I am scared I am going to gain weight because I will eat more just to quench my want for a smoke. Every nite I am going to get on here and vent my frustrations as I quit. I hear from folks at quitnet.com that they feel different as the days go on so I am going to post if I feel those differences.

Tomorrow is my Quit Day Well I guess tonite is I have one more cigarette to smoke and am resisting going to the store right now to get a pack of smokes just for a safety net. I keep telling myself I dont need the safety net, I DO NOT NEED IT. And hope I will make it.

Be back tomorrow nite.

Life

I completely forgot that I had a blog. I started to make a new one but as soon as I realized I had one decided to come back here. I have been at my new job at Frontier Communications since June 7. I work from home and answer phones I'm called a conversational expert. Customer service is supposed to be number one but so far I feel like sales are number one. I'm not really to great at it yet But I'm trying my hardest to succeed because I have too. I would never find a better job than what I have now. The pay and benefits are great and no other job would pay as much for my to support my girls now that I'm done with college. I didnt graduate yet. I have exactly one class to finish. But since the VA didnt pay for one of my classes last semester I owe the college money. I plan on paying them with my taxes so I can enroll in a class because after 4 years trying to get one associate degree I have to finish.